It’s not like crying. It’s more of a bone shaking, tear flowing, trying to regain your breathing, nose running event. You weep when you have deep sadness. You might not even know that sadness is there until it appears.
I had time today to come to my mat and just move. In the process of that movement, I was brought to tears. I noticed a deep sadness.
What was it about? To be honest I wasn’t sure.
As I continued to practice, I realized it was multi-level and multi-dimensional. Flashes of realization, not all coherent, running through my mind with corresponding feelings in my body. The present moment at its best and worse.
- There was sadness for expectations that were reasonable and unreasonable.
- Sadness for the state of the world, the hatred and misgivings of so many.
- Sadness for other’s trauma and struggle.
- Sadness for not knowing or not understanding and feeling powerless to change things.
- Sadness for a deep sensitivity and the need for a hard, outer shell to survive.
- Sadness for judgement that jumped into my mind, for missteps and mistakes, and for perfect being a fallacy
Sometimes you need your outer shell to crack, to feel deeply-TO WEEP.
Yoga can be scary at times because it makes you feel. It lessens the defenses and lets emotions be expressed, if you allow them to come.
This can happen in a physical practice, a meditation practice, a breathing practice, or just a mindfulness practice.
Don’t be afraid if this happens to you! You won’t break and you are not weak when emotions come to the surface.
It might occur when you need a change or to release something you were holding on to, or when you need to rest. Just know that it can happen. And hopefully it makes you feel better after it does.
I challenge you to weep if you need to-on your mat or off. Maybe tell a friend about it or write about it. And let it go and move on. Release the sadness.
We need all the feelings. We need to be able to weep so we can feel joy. Know all feelings are fleeting and ever changing. If sadness persists, please find someone to help, we all need a little help sometime as well.